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Tuesday, April 17, 2012

It Never Ends… And Captured Memory Reminds us of That

Is capturing moments by way of writing, audio recording or video merely a mode to safeguard memory (like Dumbledore’s pensieve in Harry Potter), later to be revisited as a perilous moment of the past, which has been long-covered by layers of rosy retrospect?

Journaling, for instance, is that therapeutic release of anger, frustration and depression… put down on paper so that it can escape our mind. The entry is complete, though still in the moment of high emotion, we set the journal goodness-knows-where, so that when we do find it, months, even years later while cleaning our room during a productive “I-love-life” day, our rosy retrospect is slapped in the faced by thorny retroheck, bringing us from our current state of emotion back into the heartache of words relived.

The recorded memory cycle can work both ways, however. On the worst day of your life, you can come across an old home video and be reminded of the happiest moments when a significant other took you in their arms… or your kids are writing on a paper plate holding a pink crayon in with all four fingers wrapped around it….

Call me emotionally unstable, a buzkill, borderline pessimistic and broken, but Isn’t it crazy how happy memories can sometimes enhance our present feelings of loneliness and sadness? These recordings of happy times should remind us that life IS one big cycle; that if in a "down" presently, an "up" will surely come. That is itself the challenge of being optimistic when nothing around us gives us reason to be.

Either way, find something. Find something in your house- a video, an old letter, a saved, undeleted voicemail from someone close to you. Let emotion come, I say. For it will be the consequential feelings of that recalled memory that inspires our next one.

Monday, March 19, 2012

It Never Ends: But It Does Make You Slow Down?

Doesn't it ring true that, no matter how high your "highs" in life are, even in the middle of them, we often feel less than?...

You achieved a goal, you got a promotion, you finished a project. "Yay!" Says the mind and body... for about 10 seconds... before we begin getting anxious about "the next thing", or "the thing that went wrong instead of right".

As an ambitious, driven doer, there is no end... We don't over-celebrate victories because the "top" is always higher than we are at any given moment.

Effective? YES. Healthy? Not Always...

I have recently been experiencing extreme highs AND lows simultaneously, a phenomenon through which I have been analyzing how much to take a second and live in the high as is, and how much to keep my head down and push even further.

One of my "ups"? I have been making strides in my career I have been working towards for the past two years.

The consequential "down"? In trying to prove myself further, I suffered a physical injury, and for the time being cannot participate in my profession which I have been working towards...

My extra "push" has now slowed me down.

The takeaway? Learn to mediate your drive. It sounds like a contradiction, as drive is an organic quality released almost subconsciously when we are fighting for something.

To be able to control it, however, is desirable. Then we celebrate and feel the highs as we should, maintain the level we are at when it is best, and harness our drive at the opportune moment.